Many of young and less young individuals arrive to the point of asking this question. Sometimes triggered by seeing or being subject to disasters, aggression, world's changes, interpersonal difficulties, isolation, stale life conditions, and sometimes simply provoked by our spontaneous internal search, this existential question may bring us to either on the path of discovery, research and testing, or into a state of anxiety and fear before making a fatal mistake in life.
You may have thought that you had found the right meaning and answers by then, and all of the sudden you feel they do not resonate as ‘yours’. Does it all feel like an empty world of someone else in which you find no connection? When your life is dictated by others, you find yourself study and work in different areas, ignoring your own desires because the ‘internalized dictations’ say that you cannot have what you want or need in the way that you need it or want it. The chance is that you haven't tried to explore what you really want to do with your life, and you might have not yet explored the possibility of 'if to' and how you could get there.